Today I weigh in at 91.2kg. I am just over 2kg away from my goal weight! Almost 4 years since I had the surgery I can honestly say that taking the plunge and finally getting the gastric band has been the best life decision (next to marrying my wonderful husband 30 years ago) I ever made.
My health has improved – both physically and mentally. My WARDROBE has improved dramatically. And my sense of purpose in life, my self-worth, and my attitude to food and eating in general has changed forever.
Today I got dressed for work in black and white striped pants, and a black blouse I have not worn for a couple of years. I used to wear this blouse out over the top of my pants, but today it looked like a sack. I decided I would do something I hadn’t done since I was about 26 (I am almost 55 now). I tucked the shirt in. It looked….okay…in fact, it looked better than okay. It looked GREAT! I think I have now reached the point where I am a “tucked in” woman. Until today, I haven’t been brave enough to give it a go – but now there’ll be no stopping me.
It seems like something so small and I suppose it is, to most people. But for someone who weighed in excess of 110kg for much of her adult life, this is phenomenal. To look how I hoped I would look. To FEEL the way I have always wanted to feel. To have CONTROL of what my body does and how it exists in the space around me is amazing.
I hope, by June, I will be writing that I am at goal weight and entering a maintenance phase. If I am, great, but if I’m not it will also be great – because I am here, I am in control, and I can do it!
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